Aiiyah. I woke up with a big hangover, although I don't drink alcohol. Whatever, now I'm reading my stupid book which consists of vampires and magic. LOL. I'm such a loser, don't you think?
Anyway, I didn't sleep well last night. I kept tossing and turning and for some odd reason, when I woke up to go to the bathroom, I found my pillow damp from all of my tears. Geez, I'm such a fucking crybaby, why the hell can't I go without crying over something stupid. well, no it's not stupid but still, you get what I mean.
I told - that I had a crush on - yesterday before I went to sleep. - responded with "I don't know what to say or how to react to this, but I am flattered." That...kept playing in my head, all night, and now, I wish I hadn't told - so soon. I would've waited and get to know - better but it was bothering me so much that I ended up spilling it anyway. Now, I feel like I shouldn't have met - even though I know it would end up hurting me a lot. This stinks, but..at least we're still friends. I just hope nothing weird goes on when we come back from spring break and that we could get to know each other more.
I'm sorry for sticking that in your head, if you're reading this, PD. Thanks for accepting me for who I am. You rock, heh.
Anyway, I went to this stupid rock and gem show today to help my brother finish his Geology merit badge for boy scouts. It was hella boring. I ended up getting new shorts for boy scouts, thank god. The ones I heard were so ugly. I always have to look nice or some sort otherwise I won't be happy.
After that I went to Lucile Packard Children's Hospital to do some volunteering. I have 118 hours so far now. Yay. >_>. My goal is 400. LOL. I'm such a no life.
Overall, everything still revolves around one thing. My sensitive personality. I dislike it. I'm WAYYY too sensitive, to the point where people find it fucking annoying. Why the fuck can't I just be normal and not have all these random feelings of happiness, then sad, then love, then depression, and all this other crap. If I had to choose, I'd choose to drown it all away with just.... not existing. But, if I didn't exist, I wouldn't have met all these wonderful people. Examples: Eileen Le, Victoria Le, Andrew Lien, Andie Tonnu, Tracy Truong, Brandon Southworth, Patrick Duong, Phoebe Cao, Trinity Nguyen, Cindy Yeap, Jessica Chang, etc. If you guys are reading this, feel special because I honestly cannot imagine my life without you guys. =).
I feel like wrapping more presents and going shopping. Yay! LOL.
1 comment:
you should go on xanga. :O well im only saying that cuz i update my xanga more than this thing. :] anyways, remember that this is only a small part of life. If you succeed, yay! If you don't, damn that sucks. but don't let something like a "broken heart" drag you down no matter how sentimental you are. You are stronger than that. confidence/ self esteem is key. :O IMO
-P
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