Stupidity, Backstabs, Tests, and Sleep

Last night was the last day of my SAT Class. I have mixed feelings at the same time, of happy and sad. I'm sad that I'm not going to see my newly made friends who don't go this school again. I'm also happy because now, after I take the SAT on Saturday, I get to go back to my favorite spot to hang on Saturdays. =).



<3 The LH guys and girls, forever. =D. If you guys/girls are reading this, I miss you all! It's been 6+ freakin' lamesauce weeks fools! Ahahah!



After I came out from SAT class yesterday and turn around the corner for a bit to grab something shiny I saw on the ground, which turned out to be a diamond necklace...some asian guy? from my school came up to me and told me, "You bitch, you better stay away from - or else I'll fuck your life up. Our school don't allow such manwhores like you." I was like WTF?! ...The main question on my mind is who is he, because he looked kind of familiar. Also, why the hell would anyone do that? Freakin' haters I swear. LOL. Whatever, he can go suck his dad's dick for all I care. Oh wait, his dad don't got a cock. BURN Baby! =D. Mwahaha.



Today we took the math portion of the STAR Test. It was kind of hard, I have to admit. There were some things that I didn't remember or didn't even know. =(. Oh well, I hope I get Proficient or Advanced because I'm taking Calculus AB/AP next year. Tomorrow, we take History and Science. Not too bad. I have a Chemistry Honors test on Friday too, FML. I'm going to fail, just like all my other tests.



I really hate backstabbers. I honestly, don't know who to trust anymore out of most of my friends. They all have been talking shit about me behind my back and spreading rumors about me, just to get me hated. What the hell did I ever fucking do tho them? Right now, I'm thinking that those who I can trust right nowwould be the following people. I know for sure I can trust Ben Nguyen, Rebekah Hoggan, and Kaylene Layton. I am pretty sure I can trust Patrick Duong and Ericson Reyes also. Oh and Rachel Tademaru, too. I guess for now, I'm going to have to keep moving groups or walking slowly around the school until I find a group where I'm comfortable in. Hopefully, it won't be too hard...

This will probably make no sense to anyone but me but..
Love, Fun, Flow, and Don't give a shit. =). Oh and..Police Departments are cool! LOL.

A Venice Masquerade

=P. Sooo today is the day after Junior prom. Time for a recap of yesterday night =). This took me about an hour or so to finish so I hope it'll be fun reading. Ahaha.



I woke up at 7:39 AM and found myself lying the opposite way around. how the hell did that happen, LOL. Geez, I must've done some craaaaazzzyyy dreamin' last night. I headed downstairs to take a shower and eat since I had to take my 5th practice SAT exam that morning. Fuck.



I went to the school and went inside P-18. Talked to Brandon Tan, Sheryne, and Lana Kuffler for a little while and then it was time to take the test, so I took the test. I kept goin' nonstop, even though there were times for break. I just wanted to fuckin' get outta there since that night was prom night. >_>. :]. Luckily I finished like...30 minutes? early. I think... Yee!



I went home and then began getting ready. First I worked on my hair. It took 50 minutes for me to get it right, LOLOLOLOLOL. I'm such a fucktard but then again, I'm probably just being my usual self-concious self. O-o. I'm surprised it turned out pretty good, especially when you're trying to make the best of it and look stunningly well, for a sophomore at least. Next, I put on my black slacks and white dress shirt. I then looked for a tie that wouldn't clash with Danielle Zuger's sage green dress. I chose a black tie with white stripey things going down. O-o. Put it all together, I'm pretty surprised to say that I looked pretty good for a guy who is like fuckin' inexperienced at this stuff. Anyway, after that I sprayed some cologne on myself and then waited a while for Danielle to come. Yes, Danielle Zuger is my special prom princess =).



After waiting for what seemed to be a long while, Danielle came and picked me up at 7:15pm. We headed off to school and met Elizabeth Steele there. Then, Carrie Leung came with her date. We waited for about 20 minutes in the FREEZING COLD for Brittany and her date to get their butts here. After that, we all went inside.



As usual, music blasted out like crazy and it kind of hurt my ears for awhile but I got accustomed to it. o_O. Ahaha. I saw so many of my friends throughout the night, I can't name how many people I hugged. =D. It started out pretty slow at first, since there wasn't a lot of people there yet but at around 8:30, things started to heat up. Geezes, Elizabeth and Brittany both brang out the damn tiger stuck inside of me. ;] Meow.



Dancing with Brittany and Elizabeth was pretty fun, I liked the way the music just took everything and slammed it all out on the ground away from me. I danced with Danielle a few times also, although she's not that type...unless it's a slow dance, so during the last song, we slow danced together. I also danced with Sandy Tran for awhile too. Helen Du said I danced really well. O_O. I swear, I never learned how to freak like that and didn't know I had that inside of me 'til this year, shit. LOL. O-o.



At around 9, we went to get our pictures taken. After all that, we went back in, just in time to see them announce the winners of Prom King and Prom Queen. I knew my prediction was going to come true since the prom king is like hella popular. *AHEM.*



The junior prom king winner was, obviously, Patrick Duong. =). I'm glad that he won, he honestly deserved it. The junior prom queen winner was Stephanie Lucido. She looked really beautiful, or at least from where I was standing. They began to slow dance and after awhile, everyone else did too.



As for me, I went and grabbed a small cookie and then began dancing again, until time flew and prom suddenly ended =(. Danielle's mom came to pick us up and drop me off at my house. I gave her one last hug and went directly to sleep.



Seeing my friends really made my day =). Thanks Hannah Galzote, Ericson Reyes, Travis and Caitlin (Iono their last names), My group, Tim Tran, Helen Du, Sandy Tran, Jalena Lau, Johnson Taing, Jasmine Tu, Sheryne ( I forgot her last name too), Stephanie Seuss, Christine Mosley, Jessica Pinate, Samantha Licea, Angela Wang, Annie Duong, Patrick Duong =], and so much more. Eek. =].

Good luck to my friends @ Jr. Prom!

Well, today is Friday Yay! I'm so late blogging this, oh well.



I have another SAT Practice Test tomorrow. I'm taking the SAT in exactly one week. Shit. Must cram! STAR Test is next week. I just finished taking my math and spanish test today and I have one for chemistry next Friday. FML. I officially bombed my spanish test. Math test wasn't too bad due to my lanyard pockets. *Ahem* =).



I found a few suspects so far about yesterday's retarded incident. Patrick, if you're reading this, I need to talk to you about that too so I'll do it either tomorrow or Sunday, if that's alright with you. Oh and I hope you feel better. =). Stupid jerks, I fucking swear.



Someone started a rumor that said that I sexually molested someone before. What the FUCK? Who the hell would do that? The answer: A no life that is super jealous of me because I know I got those I love and care for and they don't.. BURN Beezyyy =)! >_>. I betcha it's that one retard again. Yeah, the guy who doesn't have the balls to confront me and say it directly to my damn face. Ahahaha. Suckers.



Junior prom is tomorrow! Good luck to my friends =)! Patrick and Jalena, you guys better win. I'm rootin' for you guys! ^^ Lols. I can't wait for my junior prom. <3 '10 and '11. Mwahaha!

Happy Sweet 16 Catherine Pham :]

Happy Sweet Sixteen Catherineee! =). I gave her this stuffed blue elephant today in a bag I decorated with my sharpies and ribbons. o_O.

We took this AP Practice Test in 3rd period and fuck, it was HELLA hard. I guessed on like...47 problems out of 50. =(. Damn it, this means that I am going to seriously fail on the actual AP World History Exam. =(.

Chemistry Honors class sucks. Balls. >_>. I freakin' don't really care no more. I can go to DeAnza or some other ghetto community college for all I care. If only my parents were seriously not asian but whitewashed, then I'd do ANYTHING I want. Except get in trouble with the law. DUH. :].

No more school talk. Onward with the social life. LOL. =D.



Vickie and some other people now know my secret. Whattt theee effin' helll. My question is...who the hell told? Do they really dislike me that much to fricken' backstab me? So many random questions remain unanswered as these thoughts run in through my huge ass head. I have some suspects that might have been the source, since they know me. Agh whatever. As long as things don't go all over the freakin' place, I guess that everything will be fine. Or...at least I hope. o_o. This better NOT affect ANY friendships AT ALL. Especially the ones I value most. EX: Katherine Vu, Ben Nguyen, that person, etc.



I need to quit caring about what others think of me because I know that those who make fun of me are just insecure and immature. I know I'm better than them all day, every day. anyway, to those haterz? Fuck you and go get a life and go get yourself laid since you have nothign better to do, aite?

Thanks Ben, Patrick, Katherine, and Christina for making my day. =).

Another up and downie day...

Today could've been better than it was. >_>.



We had this fun run thing during PE today. I ran all the way and ended up getting 40th place. o_O. Well, at least I made it in the top 50.

I need to review for:
1) Math Test <--Super Important
2) AP World History Multiple Choice Practice Exam <--Next in line
3) Spanish Test <--I really hate spanish so who gives a damn.

What made today a =D?
That smile I really love. =).



Other than that, today pretty much stunk ass.



I can't believe I cussed out really really loud in Math class today. Mr. Luc was like Holy Shit, a cuss word coming from Jamie? O_O. Apparently, he doesn't know me at all. I'm the opposite of what you call innocent and angelic. Fuck you. =).

Happy Birthday Alex. =D.

Happy Birthday Alex, you're fucking old! LOL.

School was much much better today. =). I have SAT Class at school at 6. Yay! 3 and a half hours away from my stinkin' parents, thank god.



Anyway, highlights of my day:
-Talked to Cindy and Jessica
-Felt much better than yesterday
-Being hyper and retarded was fun =).
-Catherine's Onigiri! <3. MMMM. -> Thanks Cath!
-That smile that always makes me happy. =). LOL.

Aw man, I need to really study for my Math test this Friday and Spanish test. I can't fail otherwise my parents will take my stupid internet away. Crap. =/. Time to get workin' f'sho.

Hey, if you readin' this, I hope you ain't annoyed at me.



I talk too much. = =

This will make no sense to anyone but me. Confidence. Character. Roll. Flow. Win. <3.

Screw this crap.

I woke up this morning pretty happy to go to school. I ran down, showered, brushed my teeth, ate, and got dressed. During 1st period, I found what looks to be a really expensive necklace. o_O. 2nd period was pure hell in the sun since we had to play lacrosse nonstop. 3rd period was okay, since we didn't do anything in there. Thank god for AP World History, sometimes. LOL. Then, break came. I ran off to find Patrick because I needed an ID for Macasaet and he said he'd bring it for me. To my freaked outed-ness(if that's even a word), he accidentally forgot. I started to freak out then, because I knew that if I didn't have my ID for just one day, I would definitely take the final. 4th period started and as I walked to my class, people started taking shit about me for no damn reason. What the fuck did I ever do?! Geez, some people definitely have issues or they just plain hate my guts. =(. I kinda started crying a little bit, but I stopped myself because I know I'm better than them, and I could care less. 5th period, I nearly got caught without my ID but I hid it by hiding behind my friend, who sits in front of me. Patrick, if you're reading this, please bring it tomorrow if you can find it? =). I'd really appreciate it, dude =D. Thanks! 6th period was when my bad day began to take a small turn. My friend, Tracy Truong, made me laugh like hell and then I started saying hella random stupid comments and I made my friends laugh like hell. =D. Oh well. Today was pretty bad at first but I guess it'll get better throughout the weeks. 7 more weeks of school and I'm finally a junior! YES! =D.

Oh yeah, last week I went to Santa Barbara and I ordered some food from McDonalds, since we had to stop for lunch. I ordered 2 meals and 2 milkshakes, for me and my brother. Instead, they gave us 4 of each. I was like "What the fuck? Do you guys not know how to count?" in my head. Then I thought, damn, how'd they do on a math test? 30 out of 100? and their parents said "Bueno, bueno!" What CHOLOS. LMFAO. Oh gawd, I'ma get my ass jumped for this. Whatever. =D.

Spring break is over. =(.

Okay, I just returned home at it's around 5:10. I'm helluh tired and I could use a lot of sleep and a second shower right now, if only my limbs were like, not ready to give out yet. Haha.



I woke up knowing that I needed to go somewhere. I quickly showered and got dressed and went to my old elementary school. From there, my dad, my leader, and I started to build on our foundation for my Eagle Scout Project. We ended up finishing the frame today. All we need to do is nail the side panels and finish the roof. After that, I can receive my Eagle Scout Award! Yay! =). I can't believe I'm going to be the record holder for my troop. o_o. My cousin got his when he was 13. >_>. He's crazy.



Spring break is almost over. =(. I only have a few hours left before I return back to my usual routine of waking up, showering, eating, going to school, go home, do homework, sneak on the computer, and ...you get the picture. I still didn't finish math homework yet. It is too fucking hard, I seriously hate math now. Well, in that case, I just won't do it and I'll copy off someone. Tracy, if you're reading this, sorry girl, but I need my damn homework. =/. I owe you one. Thank god I finished AP homework though. That's more important to me, since I'm double majoring in Pediatrics and Anthropology. o_O. I officially have no life. LOL.



Well, I set some actual goals for myself. Some are hella stupid while others show other things.
A) -Finish up my Eagle Scout Project and get the board review and everything before my Sixteenth.
B) -Resurrect the VCrew.
C) -Help my friend stop smoking and lay off his drinking. =D.
D) -Stop being so hard on myself and just be myself.
E) -Hit the end of sophomore year hard and actually do my best.
F) -Get ready for junior year and my growing case of Senioritis.
G) -Go out with my friends more and become much more social and outgoing.
H) -Blog a lot more and sneak on the computer a lot less. Ahaha.

Perspective.

Yay, today is Saturday! I finally get to go to scouts and see some of my closest friends after 5 weeks of being absent due to SAT class.

Anyway, let's recap so far:
-Woke up at 7:12 am and got dressed and showered and ate a cinnamon bun! =).
-Went to scouts and hung with Sylvie, Jessica, An, Pauline, Lynn, Alex, Gilbert, and Jonathan.
-Dropped brother off at Viet school, thank god. (He's very annoying and stupid.)
-Now, I'm at home and stuck doing homework.



My mom keeps making me do extra practice problems because she wants me to get an A on my math test this Friday. Honestly, I don't want to do it. I don't care anymore. I hate it when they push me so hard. Even if I do the problems, I still get B's and they start yelling at me and telling me that I haven't been doing enough. I need to do more. Sometimes I wish I had less asian parents so that I would be able to get by with C's or B's. =). That would be the life.

I want more dress shirts and ties and shoes. =(. If I could, I'd wear them almost every single day and I would always hair spray/gel up my hair. Too bad I don't have a lot. Oh well.



It's so stupid how clothes and change in looks can change someone's perspective of you. I hate it when people judge me before they really get to know me. They always say something not true about me and then it spreads like wildfire. ...I want to find a friend, whether guy or girl, who would show me that they're different from everyone else and that they'll show me that they are a true friend..at my school. I already have one from Independence High; Eileen Le. I want to find that person from Piedmont Hills. That...is one of my goals for my last two years of high school.

What a rollercoaster day.

Aiiyah. I woke up with a big hangover, although I don't drink alcohol. Whatever, now I'm reading my stupid book which consists of vampires and magic. LOL. I'm such a loser, don't you think?

Anyway, I didn't sleep well last night. I kept tossing and turning and for some odd reason, when I woke up to go to the bathroom, I found my pillow damp from all of my tears. Geez, I'm such a fucking crybaby, why the hell can't I go without crying over something stupid. well, no it's not stupid but still, you get what I mean.

I told - that I had a crush on - yesterday before I went to sleep. - responded with "I don't know what to say or how to react to this, but I am flattered." That...kept playing in my head, all night, and now, I wish I hadn't told - so soon. I would've waited and get to know - better but it was bothering me so much that I ended up spilling it anyway. Now, I feel like I shouldn't have met - even though I know it would end up hurting me a lot. This stinks, but..at least we're still friends. I just hope nothing weird goes on when we come back from spring break and that we could get to know each other more.

I'm sorry for sticking that in your head, if you're reading this, PD. Thanks for accepting me for who I am. You rock, heh.



Anyway, I went to this stupid rock and gem show today to help my brother finish his Geology merit badge for boy scouts. It was hella boring. I ended up getting new shorts for boy scouts, thank god. The ones I heard were so ugly. I always have to look nice or some sort otherwise I won't be happy.



After that I went to Lucile Packard Children's Hospital to do some volunteering. I have 118 hours so far now. Yay. >_>. My goal is 400. LOL. I'm such a no life.



Overall, everything still revolves around one thing. My sensitive personality. I dislike it. I'm WAYYY too sensitive, to the point where people find it fucking annoying. Why the fuck can't I just be normal and not have all these random feelings of happiness, then sad, then love, then depression, and all this other crap. If I had to choose, I'd choose to drown it all away with just.... not existing. But, if I didn't exist, I wouldn't have met all these wonderful people. Examples: Eileen Le, Victoria Le, Andrew Lien, Andie Tonnu, Tracy Truong, Brandon Southworth, Patrick Duong, Phoebe Cao, Trinity Nguyen, Cindy Yeap, Jessica Chang, etc. If you guys are reading this, feel special because I honestly cannot imagine my life without you guys. =).

I feel like wrapping more presents and going shopping. Yay! LOL.

=). Isn't this cute?

Today is Thursday and I'm stuck at home doing homework for school. This sucks.

...I love you and I think you know who you are. I...just wish you knew and that you would give me a chance to become yours.

Half of Spring break is over and...

I went to the dentist today. As always, she yelled at me again for not being able to brush clearly when I try my best to do so. Whatever. Screwie. But now, my gums hurt because she used some very scary device to clean my teeth. I dislike scary devices. =(.
Why can't my teeth be indestructible?! LOL.

After that, I went to piano lessons where I hung with Katherine and Brian for awhile. =). It was pretty fun until the teacher came in and made them go away. =/. Oh well. Katherine is such a retard, I swear.

Now, I am stuck doing math homework. I'll probably start on AP World History too since I have nothing else to do except I want to chat on AIM with my friends too. >_>. Multi-tasking? Nah. My parents would probably kill me for doing that since they think my grades are falling.

This spring break wreaks. I want to go to school and hang with some friends. So much better. =). Yay for Wednesday!

Lazyness.

Gah, Finally home from Santa Barbara. So many pictures. I'll upload them later, since I'm too lazy to do it right now.

My friend said he'll try to make me horny. I'd like to see him try. >_>. Lol.

Aiiyah, I'm too lazy to blog. hit me up on aim. xPhoaddiction. <3.

ASB Speeches!

Well, time to blog again because I'm too lazy to finish homework.

Today was our ASB speeches! So, The Activities Comissioner (I think) went first. Somewhere through, I was the first to go out of the 3 running for ASB Treasurer. My friends and a lot of people said that my speech was the best of the 3. But..I also had something that really disturbed me. Well, not really really. Just slightly. My rival, Huy Nguyen, was laughing really loudly during my speech. It pissed me off. I swear, if I could, I'd go up to him and cuss the shit out of him so he'd stop messing with me. Just because he has a damn crush on me doesn't mean he has to hide it by being mean and hating on me. LOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOL. And then again, what a LOSER! He can go fucking ride on a shovel! :D.

Anyway, I made so many new friends this week! So far, I love them all, even though we're not that close. But still, they're pretty radical! :D!
-Cassie Balagso
-Angela Wang
-Jalena Lau
-Johnson Taing
-Patrick Duong
-Brandi Woo
-Brandie To
-Christina Tran
-Jessica Chang
-Cindy Yeap
These people are awesome and somehow they made this election extremely fun. =).
Good luck to the candidates!

Voting is tomorrow at lunch, everyone. Remember, Success is at its best when you vote Jamie Nguyen 4 ASB Treasurer over the rest!

Saturday the 4th.

Today, I had SAT class. The practice exam this week wasn't as hard as last weeks. How odd.

i have so many problems with my damn brain right now. Nothing seems to work right and I getting totally confused about nearly everything. Well, anything that is not academic that is. Sometimes, I wonder what people say about me is true. Is it? Or maybe I'm just being stupid and letting everything get to me. I'm so tired and I really want to just start crying and probably kill myself right now. Not literally, of course. o_o.

Thanks Victoria, Andie, and Trinity for helping me decide what to do. I'm just going to tell my closest friends who I really am, and that it makes no difference...but other than that, I guess there's nothing else I can do because a lot of people w ill hate me.

Anyway, those who are reading this and are from Piedmont Hills, Vote me for your 2009-2010 ASB Treasurer, mmkay? I'll make sure to give you everything that I can get my damn hands on. =).

Running for ASB Treasurer!

Why the heck is he standing up there and running for a position? Isn't this nothing but a popularity contest? To me, yeah it is but I'm not afraid to stand up against them and say, Vote Me, JAMIE NGUYEN, for your '09-'10 ASB Treasurer!

Why pick me you ask? Well, let me tell you this, I am about to become an Eagle Scout, which is the highest rank of boy scouting. Studies show that only 4% of ALL THE PEOPLE IN THE WORLD are able to attain this rank! I also volunteer at Lucile Packard Children's Hospital in Stanford and currently have 116 volunteer hours and counting. I have getting A's in my math, AP, and my honors classes and I am able to manage money extremely well and organize it with no sweat.

As you can see from all my skills, I'd be perfect for the position of ASB Treasurer. Since I am in boy scouts, I know how to fundraise very well and therefore, I might be able to get class sets of textbooks for each class so that we all wouldn't have to carry it around anymore! I will also try my hardest to have them remove the lockers and install in new ones, painted maroon. I will get the DJs to play better music at dances and make our school the best high school in all of California. With money comes your life. =).

Sooo...Vote for Jamie, do not hate. Let me be your candidate!

Vote JAMIE NGUYEN for your 2009-2010 ASB TREASURER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!